Thank you for writing this article. I am not a nurse but worked with them as a Hospice Chaplain, Volunteer and Bereavement coordinator. Like you, I went home for 2 weeks in the beginning, but it wasn't long after that I began to notice what the talking heads were saying and what I was seeing first hand with the effects of COVID on my caseload we're very different. Hospice patients were recovering from Covid on their own. Not all, but more then a few. When the vaccine arrived to "save us all" I was already hesitant and delayed getting the jab even though I was eligible to be an early recipient due to my work.
The longer I put it off, the more hesitant I became. The media push to shame me into taking the vaccine to show love was in it's self shameful and I made the decision not to take the jab.
I could not understand why can't we talk about alternatives? The jab became mandatory without accountability.
I'm thankful my family did have conversations and did as much research as they could and also decided not to vaccinate themselves or my grand children.
I lost my job- COVID vaccine mandatory for health care workers.
There are other jobs.
People are beginning to see the truth. Hopefully sooner than later the jab will be a vaccine of the past never to be inflicted on anyone again.
Thank you for your informative and kind reply. And thank you for your work in hospice care. I am sorry for your job loss but you are right. There are other jobs and you will find your place. This could be one of those "unexpected blessings."
Have you read any of Mathew Crawford's substack articles at Rounding the Earth? In one such article he documents all the success HCQ was having in many countries in the early days, with nothing negative about HCQ in the MSM. And then something happened. One day President Trump spoke in favor of HCQ. Within days the MSM, and medical professionals who could not stand Trump started reporting negatively about HCQ, and later on Ivermectin.
That is one of the real crimes in all of this. Medical, political, and MSM professionals were willing to let people die because of their hatred of one man.
I will check out Crawford's articles; thanks for the info. This substantiates my premise that a "visceral hatred" of President Trump likely caused MANY to die.
Thank you for writing this. I came over here from C&C. I so appreciate everything you were prompted to write. I love hearing about the miracles and the goodness of our Lord in a very troubling time. To look back and see...and know that we know that we know. And it served us well. May the Lord continue to bless you and keep you.♥
Hi Nancy, I followed a link provided in C&C comments/ Coffee & COVID by Jeff Childers. He has helped me to see national & global events in a different way, these past few years. It didn't make sense to me that the entire globe was doing everything the same. Even neighbors don't approach a problem the same. Thank you for this article & sharing your story. Now I have another resource. 😊
I too am a nurse, I retired September 2019 & by the Grace of God, was given a reprieve from this nightmare. I'm trying to honor & respect this body, that has been entrusted to me, for this life that I live. Some days are harder than others. It's a work in progress, for sure & learning along the way.
May you be well, may you be happy, may you be safe, may you live your life with ease.
Thank you for sharing your story. My current struggle is wanting an apology from so many people, including my previous church/pastor. I think Jesus would want me to let it go and forgive, but I am struggling.
You are in the company of others, many in fact. It was devastating and shocking when churches and family members ostracized and derided us. The very people we thought we could count on in times of great trial chose propaganda over common sense and decency. Yes, forgiveness is a command. We will need to keep praying for the emotional fortitude and move forward productively, as you are doing.
This is a remarkable and inspiring article. So much of your experience mirrors mine, though I'm not a healthcare professional. I'm sharing this with family and friends here in Utah. Thank you.
Thank you for your kind comment. I have friends who, though not formally college-educated, researched for themselves and came to the same conclusions. The information was there to be found. Only skeptical curiosity was required.
I simply love this, Nancy. I am probably about your age and could relate to the layers of experiences, stories and things seen that just can't be unseen, nor would I want to. It makes life rich and God even more real. I firmly decided early on that I would not be taking this shot to be what I perceived as an experiment...a lab rat. Being a healthy, active believer in Jesus and actually not buying into the fear, made a determined decision catching covid was less risky for me, over any side effects they would come to find out. (And cover up with every last bit of strength they have) So far....I have not gotten sick and will continue to refuse any 'vaccines' for the rest of my days, but I have witnessed so much damage and destruction from all of this.
I have my opinion on if it was ignorance or malevolence on the part of the makers and pushers of this virus and shot. God knows and I take great comfort in His sovereignty. My hope is Psalm 27:13-14. And even if I don't...will walk by faith anyway.
Thank you Nancy for this. I have those very verses marked in my Bible, with the notation at the top that reads "wait for the Lord!" I too will never take another vaccine and am not afraid of a virus. How beautiful it is to not fear death and know where we are going. We are one in name and one in Jesus :-)
I decided not to take the vax, but that doesn't mean I could wipe out the fear of COVID instilled by all media to try to herd us into the chute for the shot. I am still unsure of my doctor, I now second guess every medical professional and I almost wish I could just trust them again. The fear is unrelenting and accompanying anxiety and stress is bad for my body. I am currently reading lots of Eckhart Tolle, trying to live in the moment rather than worry about the future or mourn the past. It's difficult. Thank you for sharing and YOU give me a little light that some in the medical community didn't swallow the tall tale.
Fraulein I can so identify with your struggle with fear and anxiety. I too have lost much trust in the medical establishment but there are good doctors to be found. Thank you for being so transparent. I speak Jesus over you today. One of my favorite verses: "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him. And may you overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." (Romans 15:13, NIV)
Thank you! I believe that God had a hand in my decision. I had a cat that I LOVED, Frankie (we have three) - even though we bought her from the breeder we always use, unbeknownst to us, she’d used a Siberian sire from Russia who had FIP, Feline Intestinal Peritonitis. All the kittens in the litter died, ours last (we didn’t know all of this until AFTER Frankie died, she’d forgotten we had one from that litter.) Anyway - while researching it in early November 2019, I ran across all of the animal trials. You could actually order some medicine from China, but it stopped in November because the Chinese veterinarians had been pulled for a really important project. I remember when news of the vaccine came out, I kept waiting for information on how they got around the cytokine storm in all the animal trials. Animals had a robust response to the original strain, but all died when in contact of a mutated one later - the body attacked itself. Crickets about that. So I decided to wait a year or two, figuring we’d know for sure by that time. And then the mandate came out, so I decided to go for early retirement.
Worst part of work was all the channels turned to CNN with the death meter running. I kept asking - umm, did they do this for heart disease? Cancer? WHY ARE WE WATCHING THIS! Oh, and someone who didn’t like me reported me twice for walking in the hallway after I’d finished my coffee without a mask. (You didn’t have to wear one if you were drinking, but I didn’t time my cup correctly. FUN TIMES!) Thank you for your prayer. My life coach gave me this one - For God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. Amen.
I saw your post on the Medium article, and am so thankful I followed this link. What a wonderful thoughtful clear description of what just happened! Even having lived this it is still so unbelievable. What a great idea to memorialize your thoughts and experiences for future generations so that they may have first hand accounts, not just what is the approved narrative that gets put in a history book.
Thank you for sharing your experience. I found this from your C&C comment today. The personal journies of people facing the fear to find the truth are one of the greatest legacies of this tragedy.
I am inspired by your mission to offer those in your inner circle a window into your thoughts. Many will eventually seek to understand, but perhaps be anxious about speaking directly about a time when many acted in ways they now at best may feel were less than honorable or strong. You have given them an honest, sincere, and helpfulbridge to a better understanding.
Thank you for writing this excellent essay. It should be submitted for publication. You might contact one of the publications that is being truthful about vaccines, such as The Epoch Times.
Thank you! I too am a pro-life conservative Christian Independent and I’ve been saying that Christians are not relying on God right now as they should and instead relying on the government. Very sad.
Thank you for cataloging all of these events. The censorship of the benefits of ivermectin and any criticisms of the CDC “guidelines” was so chilling, my ( former) pediatrician trying to shame me into giving the vax to my 12 and 14-year old healthy daughters ( which actually made me more suspicious… we had always had good conversations and now she was suddenly turning on me.. I think I read that many practices received increased compensation for higher vax rates)
I think you would like this very recent interview with Dr. Scott Atlas who recounts the early days of Covid and his struggle to bring calm rational thought to the White House Covid Task Force… He, like yourself, has an excellent memory:
Thank you for sharing this. I too don’t recognize the nurse practitioner who cared for me so well for many years. When I sought an Ivermectin prescription in the summer of ‘21 her first response was “that’s for parasites. Your best bet is to take the vaccine.” I would love to now have a conversation with her but doubt it will be possible. I always respected Scott Atlas. Thank you for the link.
Thank you for writing this article. I am not a nurse but worked with them as a Hospice Chaplain, Volunteer and Bereavement coordinator. Like you, I went home for 2 weeks in the beginning, but it wasn't long after that I began to notice what the talking heads were saying and what I was seeing first hand with the effects of COVID on my caseload we're very different. Hospice patients were recovering from Covid on their own. Not all, but more then a few. When the vaccine arrived to "save us all" I was already hesitant and delayed getting the jab even though I was eligible to be an early recipient due to my work.
The longer I put it off, the more hesitant I became. The media push to shame me into taking the vaccine to show love was in it's self shameful and I made the decision not to take the jab.
I could not understand why can't we talk about alternatives? The jab became mandatory without accountability.
I'm thankful my family did have conversations and did as much research as they could and also decided not to vaccinate themselves or my grand children.
I lost my job- COVID vaccine mandatory for health care workers.
There are other jobs.
People are beginning to see the truth. Hopefully sooner than later the jab will be a vaccine of the past never to be inflicted on anyone again.
Thank you for your informative and kind reply. And thank you for your work in hospice care. I am sorry for your job loss but you are right. There are other jobs and you will find your place. This could be one of those "unexpected blessings."
Have you read any of Mathew Crawford's substack articles at Rounding the Earth? In one such article he documents all the success HCQ was having in many countries in the early days, with nothing negative about HCQ in the MSM. And then something happened. One day President Trump spoke in favor of HCQ. Within days the MSM, and medical professionals who could not stand Trump started reporting negatively about HCQ, and later on Ivermectin.
That is one of the real crimes in all of this. Medical, political, and MSM professionals were willing to let people die because of their hatred of one man.
I will check out Crawford's articles; thanks for the info. This substantiates my premise that a "visceral hatred" of President Trump likely caused MANY to die.
Thank you for writing this. I came over here from C&C. I so appreciate everything you were prompted to write. I love hearing about the miracles and the goodness of our Lord in a very troubling time. To look back and see...and know that we know that we know. And it served us well. May the Lord continue to bless you and keep you.♥
Thank you SadieJay. I speak Jesus over you right now.
Thank you. This is beautifully written and harmonizes with my journey of the past two years.
Hi Nancy, I followed a link provided in C&C comments/ Coffee & COVID by Jeff Childers. He has helped me to see national & global events in a different way, these past few years. It didn't make sense to me that the entire globe was doing everything the same. Even neighbors don't approach a problem the same. Thank you for this article & sharing your story. Now I have another resource. 😊
I too am a nurse, I retired September 2019 & by the Grace of God, was given a reprieve from this nightmare. I'm trying to honor & respect this body, that has been entrusted to me, for this life that I live. Some days are harder than others. It's a work in progress, for sure & learning along the way.
May you be well, may you be happy, may you be safe, may you live your life with ease.
Thank you for sharing your story. My current struggle is wanting an apology from so many people, including my previous church/pastor. I think Jesus would want me to let it go and forgive, but I am struggling.
You are in the company of others, many in fact. It was devastating and shocking when churches and family members ostracized and derided us. The very people we thought we could count on in times of great trial chose propaganda over common sense and decency. Yes, forgiveness is a command. We will need to keep praying for the emotional fortitude and move forward productively, as you are doing.
This is a remarkable and inspiring article. So much of your experience mirrors mine, though I'm not a healthcare professional. I'm sharing this with family and friends here in Utah. Thank you.
Thank you for your kind comment. I have friends who, though not formally college-educated, researched for themselves and came to the same conclusions. The information was there to be found. Only skeptical curiosity was required.
I simply love this, Nancy. I am probably about your age and could relate to the layers of experiences, stories and things seen that just can't be unseen, nor would I want to. It makes life rich and God even more real. I firmly decided early on that I would not be taking this shot to be what I perceived as an experiment...a lab rat. Being a healthy, active believer in Jesus and actually not buying into the fear, made a determined decision catching covid was less risky for me, over any side effects they would come to find out. (And cover up with every last bit of strength they have) So far....I have not gotten sick and will continue to refuse any 'vaccines' for the rest of my days, but I have witnessed so much damage and destruction from all of this.
I have my opinion on if it was ignorance or malevolence on the part of the makers and pushers of this virus and shot. God knows and I take great comfort in His sovereignty. My hope is Psalm 27:13-14. And even if I don't...will walk by faith anyway.
Thank you Nancy for this. I have those very verses marked in my Bible, with the notation at the top that reads "wait for the Lord!" I too will never take another vaccine and am not afraid of a virus. How beautiful it is to not fear death and know where we are going. We are one in name and one in Jesus :-)
Amen. You are a rare gem. And His beloved!
I decided not to take the vax, but that doesn't mean I could wipe out the fear of COVID instilled by all media to try to herd us into the chute for the shot. I am still unsure of my doctor, I now second guess every medical professional and I almost wish I could just trust them again. The fear is unrelenting and accompanying anxiety and stress is bad for my body. I am currently reading lots of Eckhart Tolle, trying to live in the moment rather than worry about the future or mourn the past. It's difficult. Thank you for sharing and YOU give me a little light that some in the medical community didn't swallow the tall tale.
Fraulein I can so identify with your struggle with fear and anxiety. I too have lost much trust in the medical establishment but there are good doctors to be found. Thank you for being so transparent. I speak Jesus over you today. One of my favorite verses: "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him. And may you overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." (Romans 15:13, NIV)
Thank you! I believe that God had a hand in my decision. I had a cat that I LOVED, Frankie (we have three) - even though we bought her from the breeder we always use, unbeknownst to us, she’d used a Siberian sire from Russia who had FIP, Feline Intestinal Peritonitis. All the kittens in the litter died, ours last (we didn’t know all of this until AFTER Frankie died, she’d forgotten we had one from that litter.) Anyway - while researching it in early November 2019, I ran across all of the animal trials. You could actually order some medicine from China, but it stopped in November because the Chinese veterinarians had been pulled for a really important project. I remember when news of the vaccine came out, I kept waiting for information on how they got around the cytokine storm in all the animal trials. Animals had a robust response to the original strain, but all died when in contact of a mutated one later - the body attacked itself. Crickets about that. So I decided to wait a year or two, figuring we’d know for sure by that time. And then the mandate came out, so I decided to go for early retirement.
Worst part of work was all the channels turned to CNN with the death meter running. I kept asking - umm, did they do this for heart disease? Cancer? WHY ARE WE WATCHING THIS! Oh, and someone who didn’t like me reported me twice for walking in the hallway after I’d finished my coffee without a mask. (You didn’t have to wear one if you were drinking, but I didn’t time my cup correctly. FUN TIMES!) Thank you for your prayer. My life coach gave me this one - For God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. Amen.
Amen! Thank you for this fascinating story. You should write it out in more detail and publish it on Substack.
I saw your post on the Medium article, and am so thankful I followed this link. What a wonderful thoughtful clear description of what just happened! Even having lived this it is still so unbelievable. What a great idea to memorialize your thoughts and experiences for future generations so that they may have first hand accounts, not just what is the approved narrative that gets put in a history book.
Mrs. Benedict,
Thank you for sharing your experience. I found this from your C&C comment today. The personal journies of people facing the fear to find the truth are one of the greatest legacies of this tragedy.
I am inspired by your mission to offer those in your inner circle a window into your thoughts. Many will eventually seek to understand, but perhaps be anxious about speaking directly about a time when many acted in ways they now at best may feel were less than honorable or strong. You have given them an honest, sincere, and helpfulbridge to a better understanding.
May God continue to lovingly bless and guide you.
Thank you Jim. You are most kind. This endeavor takes much time but I have a desire to do more writing.
Thank you for writing this excellent essay. It should be submitted for publication. You might contact one of the publications that is being truthful about vaccines, such as The Epoch Times.
Thank you. That is very kind.
Thank you! I too am a pro-life conservative Christian Independent and I’ve been saying that Christians are not relying on God right now as they should and instead relying on the government. Very sad.
Yes Oma. The government has failed us but God never fails. And He is always the same. We can trust Him explicitly.
May Christ bless you Nancy !
Awesome post, thank you! One thing, you misspelled "nurse." It's spelled "Angel." Thanks again...
Thank you for cataloging all of these events. The censorship of the benefits of ivermectin and any criticisms of the CDC “guidelines” was so chilling, my ( former) pediatrician trying to shame me into giving the vax to my 12 and 14-year old healthy daughters ( which actually made me more suspicious… we had always had good conversations and now she was suddenly turning on me.. I think I read that many practices received increased compensation for higher vax rates)
I think you would like this very recent interview with Dr. Scott Atlas who recounts the early days of Covid and his struggle to bring calm rational thought to the White House Covid Task Force… He, like yourself, has an excellent memory:
https://www.prageru.com/video/dr-scott-atlas-on-why-we-were-forced-to-jab-and-mask?utm_source=app&utm_medium=share
Thank you for sharing this. I too don’t recognize the nurse practitioner who cared for me so well for many years. When I sought an Ivermectin prescription in the summer of ‘21 her first response was “that’s for parasites. Your best bet is to take the vaccine.” I would love to now have a conversation with her but doubt it will be possible. I always respected Scott Atlas. Thank you for the link.