I am a 67-year-old wife and mother of five, a non-practicing nurse with a BSN from the Medical College of Virginia/VCU. And I am COVID-unvaccinated. This is written for my children as an historical record of my thoughts and observations about the 2019 SARS-CoV-2 contagion that led to a worldwide pandemic in the ensuing two years. I want my children and grandchildren to remember that the decision not to take the experimental mRNA shot was carefully considered. It is a timeline of the development of some important vaccines and drugs over my lifetime, as well as events of the last two years, and is presented in segments for you to ponder your own conclusions. If you are reading this, one of my children thought you might find it interesting or useful, though I am not so naive as to think my evaluations are unique or even uncommon. Circumstances in our lives inform our opinions and choices. This is a record of the effect of memorable experiences and diligent research on my determinations and resolve. It has been impressed on me that this was perhaps the most remarkable event of my lifetime and that of my children. We have thankfully not experienced a world war, though our country was attacked on September 11, 2001. This act of terror changed much about our surveillance and security policies, leading to the loss of precious American lives and financial investment on foreign soil. But never in my experience has the entire globe been ensconced in the specter of a communicable illness that many believed could result in devastating loss of life and created unforeseen division and controversy. I do not need your agreement, but I do hope to convey my interest in the pursuit of the truth and respectful dialogue from all sides of the issues. My motto over the last two years has been this (it may seem trite but were it considered by all, would lead to better consensus):
Thank you for writing this article. I am not a nurse but worked with them as a Hospice Chaplain, Volunteer and Bereavement coordinator. Like you, I went home for 2 weeks in the beginning, but it wasn't long after that I began to notice what the talking heads were saying and what I was seeing first hand with the effects of COVID on my caseload we're very different. Hospice patients were recovering from Covid on their own. Not all, but more then a few. When the vaccine arrived to "save us all" I was already hesitant and delayed getting the jab even though I was eligible to be an early recipient due to my work.
The longer I put it off, the more hesitant I became. The media push to shame me into taking the vaccine to show love was in it's self shameful and I made the decision not to take the jab.
I could not understand why can't we talk about alternatives? The jab became mandatory without accountability.
I'm thankful my family did have conversations and did as much research as they could and also decided not to vaccinate themselves or my grand children.
I lost my job- COVID vaccine mandatory for health care workers.
There are other jobs.
People are beginning to see the truth. Hopefully sooner than later the jab will be a vaccine of the past never to be inflicted on anyone again.
Have you read any of Mathew Crawford's substack articles at Rounding the Earth? In one such article he documents all the success HCQ was having in many countries in the early days, with nothing negative about HCQ in the MSM. And then something happened. One day President Trump spoke in favor of HCQ. Within days the MSM, and medical professionals who could not stand Trump started reporting negatively about HCQ, and later on Ivermectin.
That is one of the real crimes in all of this. Medical, political, and MSM professionals were willing to let people die because of their hatred of one man.
Thank you for writing this. I came over here from C&C. I so appreciate everything you were prompted to write. I love hearing about the miracles and the goodness of our Lord in a very troubling time. To look back and see...and know that we know that we know. And it served us well. May the Lord continue to bless you and keep you.♥
Hi Nancy, I followed a link provided in C&C comments/ Coffee & COVID by Jeff Childers. He has helped me to see national & global events in a different way, these past few years. It didn't make sense to me that the entire globe was doing everything the same. Even neighbors don't approach a problem the same. Thank you for this article & sharing your story. Now I have another resource. 😊
I too am a nurse, I retired September 2019 & by the Grace of God, was given a reprieve from this nightmare. I'm trying to honor & respect this body, that has been entrusted to me, for this life that I live. Some days are harder than others. It's a work in progress, for sure & learning along the way.
May you be well, may you be happy, may you be safe, may you live your life with ease.
Thank you for sharing your story. My current struggle is wanting an apology from so many people, including my previous church/pastor. I think Jesus would want me to let it go and forgive, but I am struggling.
This is a remarkable and inspiring article. So much of your experience mirrors mine, though I'm not a healthcare professional. I'm sharing this with family and friends here in Utah. Thank you.
I decided not to take the vax, but that doesn't mean I could wipe out the fear of COVID instilled by all media to try to herd us into the chute for the shot. I am still unsure of my doctor, I now second guess every medical professional and I almost wish I could just trust them again. The fear is unrelenting and accompanying anxiety and stress is bad for my body. I am currently reading lots of Eckhart Tolle, trying to live in the moment rather than worry about the future or mourn the past. It's difficult. Thank you for sharing and YOU give me a little light that some in the medical community didn't swallow the tall tale.
I saw your post on the Medium article, and am so thankful I followed this link. What a wonderful thoughtful clear description of what just happened! Even having lived this it is still so unbelievable. What a great idea to memorialize your thoughts and experiences for future generations so that they may have first hand accounts, not just what is the approved narrative that gets put in a history book.
Thank you for sharing your experience. I found this from your C&C comment today. The personal journies of people facing the fear to find the truth are one of the greatest legacies of this tragedy.
I am inspired by your mission to offer those in your inner circle a window into your thoughts. Many will eventually seek to understand, but perhaps be anxious about speaking directly about a time when many acted in ways they now at best may feel were less than honorable or strong. You have given them an honest, sincere, and helpfulbridge to a better understanding.
Thank you for writing this excellent essay. It should be submitted for publication. You might contact one of the publications that is being truthful about vaccines, such as The Epoch Times.
I simply love this, Nancy. I am probably about your age and could relate to the layers of experiences, stories and things seen that just can't be unseen, nor would I want to. It makes life rich and God even more real. I firmly decided early on that I would not be taking this shot to be what I perceived as an experiment...a lab rat. Being a healthy, active believer in Jesus and actually not buying into the fear, made a determined decision catching covid was less risky for me, over any side effects they would come to find out. (And cover up with every last bit of strength they have) So far....I have not gotten sick and will continue to refuse any 'vaccines' for the rest of my days, but I have witnessed so much damage and destruction from all of this.
I have my opinion on if it was ignorance or malevolence on the part of the makers and pushers of this virus and shot. God knows and I take great comfort in His sovereignty. My hope is Psalm 27:13-14. And even if I don't...will walk by faith anyway.
Thank you for cataloging all of these events. The censorship of the benefits of ivermectin and any criticisms of the CDC “guidelines” was so chilling, my ( former) pediatrician trying to shame me into giving the vax to my 12 and 14-year old healthy daughters ( which actually made me more suspicious… we had always had good conversations and now she was suddenly turning on me.. I think I read that many practices received increased compensation for higher vax rates)
I think you would like this very recent interview with Dr. Scott Atlas who recounts the early days of Covid and his struggle to bring calm rational thought to the White House Covid Task Force… He, like yourself, has an excellent memory:
Excellent thank you, wonderful to have this historical record, really helpful for reference. If I may, some links on the COVID 19 affair and what I have come to understand.
Thank you for writing this article. I am not a nurse but worked with them as a Hospice Chaplain, Volunteer and Bereavement coordinator. Like you, I went home for 2 weeks in the beginning, but it wasn't long after that I began to notice what the talking heads were saying and what I was seeing first hand with the effects of COVID on my caseload we're very different. Hospice patients were recovering from Covid on their own. Not all, but more then a few. When the vaccine arrived to "save us all" I was already hesitant and delayed getting the jab even though I was eligible to be an early recipient due to my work.
The longer I put it off, the more hesitant I became. The media push to shame me into taking the vaccine to show love was in it's self shameful and I made the decision not to take the jab.
I could not understand why can't we talk about alternatives? The jab became mandatory without accountability.
I'm thankful my family did have conversations and did as much research as they could and also decided not to vaccinate themselves or my grand children.
I lost my job- COVID vaccine mandatory for health care workers.
There are other jobs.
People are beginning to see the truth. Hopefully sooner than later the jab will be a vaccine of the past never to be inflicted on anyone again.
Have you read any of Mathew Crawford's substack articles at Rounding the Earth? In one such article he documents all the success HCQ was having in many countries in the early days, with nothing negative about HCQ in the MSM. And then something happened. One day President Trump spoke in favor of HCQ. Within days the MSM, and medical professionals who could not stand Trump started reporting negatively about HCQ, and later on Ivermectin.
That is one of the real crimes in all of this. Medical, political, and MSM professionals were willing to let people die because of their hatred of one man.
Thank you for writing this. I came over here from C&C. I so appreciate everything you were prompted to write. I love hearing about the miracles and the goodness of our Lord in a very troubling time. To look back and see...and know that we know that we know. And it served us well. May the Lord continue to bless you and keep you.♥
Thank you. This is beautifully written and harmonizes with my journey of the past two years.
Hi Nancy, I followed a link provided in C&C comments/ Coffee & COVID by Jeff Childers. He has helped me to see national & global events in a different way, these past few years. It didn't make sense to me that the entire globe was doing everything the same. Even neighbors don't approach a problem the same. Thank you for this article & sharing your story. Now I have another resource. 😊
I too am a nurse, I retired September 2019 & by the Grace of God, was given a reprieve from this nightmare. I'm trying to honor & respect this body, that has been entrusted to me, for this life that I live. Some days are harder than others. It's a work in progress, for sure & learning along the way.
May you be well, may you be happy, may you be safe, may you live your life with ease.
Thank you for sharing your story. My current struggle is wanting an apology from so many people, including my previous church/pastor. I think Jesus would want me to let it go and forgive, but I am struggling.
This is a remarkable and inspiring article. So much of your experience mirrors mine, though I'm not a healthcare professional. I'm sharing this with family and friends here in Utah. Thank you.
I decided not to take the vax, but that doesn't mean I could wipe out the fear of COVID instilled by all media to try to herd us into the chute for the shot. I am still unsure of my doctor, I now second guess every medical professional and I almost wish I could just trust them again. The fear is unrelenting and accompanying anxiety and stress is bad for my body. I am currently reading lots of Eckhart Tolle, trying to live in the moment rather than worry about the future or mourn the past. It's difficult. Thank you for sharing and YOU give me a little light that some in the medical community didn't swallow the tall tale.
I saw your post on the Medium article, and am so thankful I followed this link. What a wonderful thoughtful clear description of what just happened! Even having lived this it is still so unbelievable. What a great idea to memorialize your thoughts and experiences for future generations so that they may have first hand accounts, not just what is the approved narrative that gets put in a history book.
Mrs. Benedict,
Thank you for sharing your experience. I found this from your C&C comment today. The personal journies of people facing the fear to find the truth are one of the greatest legacies of this tragedy.
I am inspired by your mission to offer those in your inner circle a window into your thoughts. Many will eventually seek to understand, but perhaps be anxious about speaking directly about a time when many acted in ways they now at best may feel were less than honorable or strong. You have given them an honest, sincere, and helpfulbridge to a better understanding.
May God continue to lovingly bless and guide you.
Thank you for writing this excellent essay. It should be submitted for publication. You might contact one of the publications that is being truthful about vaccines, such as The Epoch Times.
I simply love this, Nancy. I am probably about your age and could relate to the layers of experiences, stories and things seen that just can't be unseen, nor would I want to. It makes life rich and God even more real. I firmly decided early on that I would not be taking this shot to be what I perceived as an experiment...a lab rat. Being a healthy, active believer in Jesus and actually not buying into the fear, made a determined decision catching covid was less risky for me, over any side effects they would come to find out. (And cover up with every last bit of strength they have) So far....I have not gotten sick and will continue to refuse any 'vaccines' for the rest of my days, but I have witnessed so much damage and destruction from all of this.
I have my opinion on if it was ignorance or malevolence on the part of the makers and pushers of this virus and shot. God knows and I take great comfort in His sovereignty. My hope is Psalm 27:13-14. And even if I don't...will walk by faith anyway.
May Christ bless you Nancy !
Awesome post, thank you! One thing, you misspelled "nurse." It's spelled "Angel." Thanks again...
Thank you for cataloging all of these events. The censorship of the benefits of ivermectin and any criticisms of the CDC “guidelines” was so chilling, my ( former) pediatrician trying to shame me into giving the vax to my 12 and 14-year old healthy daughters ( which actually made me more suspicious… we had always had good conversations and now she was suddenly turning on me.. I think I read that many practices received increased compensation for higher vax rates)
I think you would like this very recent interview with Dr. Scott Atlas who recounts the early days of Covid and his struggle to bring calm rational thought to the White House Covid Task Force… He, like yourself, has an excellent memory:
https://www.prageru.com/video/dr-scott-atlas-on-why-we-were-forced-to-jab-and-mask?utm_source=app&utm_medium=share
Excellent thank you, wonderful to have this historical record, really helpful for reference. If I may, some links on the COVID 19 affair and what I have come to understand.
https://alphaandomegacloud.wordpress.com/2022/08/17/what-is-the-flu-a-k-a-covid-19-and-why-vaccines-are-pointless-at-best/
https://alphaandomegacloud.wordpress.com/2022/11/14/vaccination-industry-in-a-nutshell/
https://alphaandomegacloud.wordpress.com/2023/03/04/pharmaceuticals-whats-in-them/